sweet my honey

Senior Tibbles is da bomb diggity

2004-09-11T22:13:59Z

It's comforting to know that I am the Stella Artois of lesbians. "The Holy Grail of Lesbianism" is much better than regular so-so lezzy and the god-awful "I wish I was a real boy" lesbian. Eventually I will be thin enough to be pretty and, with an arsenal of new clothes, I shall be unstoppable.
While I hate beer, I've since been told that there is a giant difference between American beer and European beer, moreso than serving temperature. I'll have to try some one day... one fictional day when I'm fictionally in Europe.

I've beaten Starcraft: Brood War yet again. The final stage took me 5.5 freaking hours. I think I'll play regular Starcraft again. It's always fun to watch Kerrigan get eaten by the Zerg. Though, it does turn her evil and she is saddled with the nonsensical title "The Queen of Blades." I like the Zerg but they have so many disadvantages and I can win much easier with the Protoss or Terrans.

I want to transfer to The Universtiy of Pittsburgh! The polisci department there is scary-good plus I can major in Japanese Studies (double majors... mmmmm)! Why is tuition $19,000/year?!!? Just look at the Political Science department. They offer 4 fields of study for crying out loud! I HAVE to transfer but I really don't want to because I really can't afford it. Maybe next year, once I've built up my transcript enough I'll be able to kick-ass scholarship wise and will have it paid for. I think I'm skittish about it because after my turmoil with finaid this year I'm worried that I'll get even less next year. Maybe I can have my finaid info sent to Pitt and see how much they're willing to offer me. So, we'll see. You only need a 2.75 gpa to transfer there? Psh. Easy peasy. What I do need to do, however, is get my ass down to JCC and keep retaking that damn bullshit math test until I'm passed into regular stupid math so I can get that shite over and done with. I have to have it done if I want to transfer. Damn you, UofL for your ridiculously stupid requirements.

Please, do not click on this unless you have a sense of humor:

damn, ishta is hot

2004-09-11T03:15:09Z

To clear up something that I know has bothered at least 2 people.

No, I don't think every meat eater is a puppy-murdering serial killer but when I'm mad I tend to say things off-the-cuff (just like 99% of the population). However, if you've known me for longer than say, 2 weeks, chances are you know my feelings about meat eating. In case you've forgotten:

1) yes, I do find eating meat to be repugnant and I've never claimed otherwise
2) I find it immoral and unethical
3) I think if most people spent time in a slaughter house and saw the way these animals are horribly treated, saw their pain, looked into their eyes, and SAW the fear and eventual murder of these animales, they'd not eat them again
4) I believe in eating the food that grows from the earth. Cows don't grow on vines, though, admitedly, it'd be pretty fucking funny if they did.
5) Animals can and do feel pain, fear, excitement and apprehension and I'd wager to say that your dog/cat/whatever also can tell that you love it very much
6) For some reason, most people seem to draw a huge fucking distinction between cows and pigs and dogs and cats. One is a loving pet, the other is dinner and no one sees the hypocracy in their diet. Most Americans wouldn't eat a kitten-burger or pizza with puppy pepperoni and you can be a smartass all you want with "haha, I would! Mmm... puppies. Neenner" and you'd be a fucking liar and you know it. Save your moronic "comeback" for someone dumb enough to laugh at your lame attempt at humor
7) I'm very "Catholic vs Gays" on this. Catholics love the sinner and hate the sin. I think that's fine. To them being gay is a sin, that doesn't make them hate gay people. To me, eating meat is disgusting. It causes pain and suffering to a living being but eating them doesn't make me hate you, I hate that you feel the need to ignore the pain, horror and destruction you cause.
8) I've moved on from my militant shove-my-agenda-down-your-throat-days, but I am always more than happy to talk about vegetarian/veganism and will support anyone's desire to change thier diet for the better and help in any way I can.
9) Serial killers DO start out murdering and torturing animals and/or children because it's easy, the victims cannot fight back and no one really cares. I believe humans have a certain amount of responsibility to each other and the rest of the planet and it pains me to see people disregard it with abandon.
10) To quote Ghandi: "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."

There. A nice little disclaimer repeating things that everyone who reads this thing with any regularity should already know.

Meanwhile, back at the Ranch...

After class Kaz-sensee told us about Japan and how the people there, especially the younger people, are enamoured with Americans and how little kids are drawn to us. She said that they love to take pictures with Americans who "look cool." She talked about how they love blonde hair and she said they'd be fascinated with my piercings. She didn't know my tongue was done and when I showed her she said, "ITAI! I feel pain! I feel pain for you!" She asked me if it bothers me to eat or if, when I wear sweaters in the winter, if they get caught or anything. She's so adorable! She fed us rice and candy today and she saw Kyo-bunny (the little plush bunny that I take everywhere) and said, "Kawaii!" I told her that I collect rabbits and she said she has one at home that she's going to give to me. I want her to adopt me. She's the bestest ever! Her class is so fun. I've never had this much fun learning a language! And it makes me very happy to know that I'll be popular in Japan.

I came home and took a nap from about 4-7. I'm still very tired.

"Are you eating another one of those veggie hot dogs?" asked granny.
"Yes."
"Is that all you've been eating?"
"No."
"Well, that's all I ever smell and see you eat!"
"I eat other things!"
"You'd better be, I don't want you getting sick again. Are you still having dizzy spells?"
"No, I'm taking my vitamins."
"Well, KEEP taking them!"

She's watching me like a hawk. For no reason. I'm perfectly fine! I've been dizzy and lightheaded because I've been eating nothing but sugary snacks and caffeine and ignoring other, more appropriate foods for the past 3 or so weeks. College has a habit of making you forget proper nutrition. But I am eating better and so she has no reason to be so suspicious... I didn't time travel.

i bought a tattoo encyclopedia today

2004-09-09T22:35:20Z

My feet, they hurt greatly, damn you cute kitten heels. The reign of proflust continues as does Girl A's resistance to coming to class. Dr. Allen says that I "know the strangest things." My cousin Pixie can choke and die. I was relating this story to my granny when Pixie (nee Vera) shows up, of course, to eat like the fattie she is. The story (if you opt to NOT read it) is about some asshole Floridian who has a litter of puppies that he cannot find homes for, so instead of taking them to a shelter he decides to shoot them. He was holding some of the puppies, one squirmed, the gun goes off, shooting said asshole in the wrist. To which Pixie says, "So? They're just animals. Who cares if he shoots them?" Pagan started barking at her (dogs can sense morons) and I said, "Well, feel free to bite Pagan, I'm sure she tastes like ham." That didn't go over well. Is it my fault that she weighs 400lbs and is so pathetic that she actually had that gastro-bypass surgery? Hell no. Fucking fat cunt. My curse to her: "May she get all that she deserves." Peolpe like Pixie are the reason this society is shit. No one cares about ANYTHING let alone the life of what they deem inferior. That's why they're meat eaters, why they wear leather, fur and suede, why they abuse children, that's why serial killers start out abusing animals because it's acceptable and no one gives a shit because the victims are voiceless.
I fucking loathe 3/4 of my family. Why do they live Lord? Why do you mock me with their existence? Why can't you pull some Old Testament vengence out of your ass and smote my enemies? Please? With pink sugar on top?

In other news:

Dear Students Attending the University of Louisville,

STOP FUCKING STARING AT ME!!!

Bitterly,
Bunny

Goddamn. I wore: the purple hat that Lauren made for me, hot pink/grey shirt, hot pink/black capris, black and white striped knee socks and white kitten heels. The boy next to me in Polisci (who's last name was Weiner) liked katsuren's heart bag (which is the perfect size for my cd-player (I'm borrowing granny's until I get a new one)).

Five Things You May Not Know About My Time in School Are:
1) I love my current political science class but I love it extra because of Professor Brittingham ::dreamy hearts::
2) I wouldn't mind being a professor one day
3) I waste more paper doodling than taking notes
4) The only reason I will miss class is if I'm literally at death's door
5) In History class today, I begged my heart to keep beating because I was worried it might stop.

Five Things You May Not Know About the Job (Jobs) I Have (or Had) are:
1) I've never lied on my timesheets
2) Bosses are useless and love to waste money
3) Gossip about teachers is fun... and leverage
4) I tried stealing a book from my boss's office once but she came back before I had the chance
5) It doesn't matter where you work, if you're NOT the boss, you're underpaid and overworked.

Five Things You May Not Know About My Online Life are:
1) I have about 40 email addresses scattered all over the place
2) I've had a sort of "relationship" over the computer, with a boy no less. But it was a long time ago.
3) People, for some reason, think I'm hot online but upon meeting me personally quickly come to the opposite conclusion
4) The only person I'm ever 99% honest with is Toochers
5) Sometimes I block everyone except about 4 people

Five Things You May Not Know About Where I Live are:
1) Middlesboro, KY is the only city in the United States built within a meteor crater.
2) Louisville is named after French King Louis XVI
3) The Simpsons are from Kentucky
4) Kentucky is the state where both Abraham Lincoln, President of the Union, and Jefferson Davis, President of the Confederacy, were born. They were born less than one hundred miles and one year apart.
5) The last battle of the Revolutionary War was fought at Blue Licks, Ky.

Five Things You May Not Know About My Core Personality are:
1) I'm a crybaby
2) I'm very insecure
3) I've been told that I'm pretty damn funny
4) I think in pictures and sometimes it's hard to express what I'm thinking
5) I'm extremely secretive

Five Things You May Not Know About My Home Life are:
1) I actually enjoy being by myself
2) My room is full of toys and pink stuff
3) My vibrator is in my underwear drawer
4) I'm sloppy and messy and can't stand neat freaks
5) There are 12 plush rabbits on my bed

Five Things You May Not Know that I Desperately Want are:
1) To be thin and pretty. Especially the thin part
2) To be talented
3) To be the bestest political scientist ever!!
4) To make everyone care about animals as much as I do
5) A certain person

Five Embarrassing Admissions I Have That You May Not Know are:
1) My toes are long. Like really long, alien toes.
2) I am obsessed with my weight, I can't recall a time in my life when I wasn't on some sort of diet
3) I shaved my pubic hair all off once and learned a valuable (and quite itchy) lesson.
4) I used to write stories about the lives of my barbie dolls
5) There is a picture of me at age 4 asleep on the potty.

Five Things You May Not Know About What I Do in a Typical Day are:
1) Take pills
2) reapply lipstick/gloss 40 times a day
3) whine and pout and complain about something
4) write in my diary
5) click through eBay for about 2 hours

Five Things You May Not Know that are Really Important to Me are:
1) Animal rights
2) Losing weight
3) Toochers
4) Pagan
5) School

NOOOOO!!! CLASS CONFLICT!!! There's a class I want to desperately take next semester at UofL but it's MWF at 11!! NO!! Spring 2005's classes aren't up at Bellarmine yet, but Spring 2004 had Introductory Japanese II at noon! NOOOO!!! I can't make it to Bellarmine from UofL in 10 minutes!! DAMNIT!!! I really really hope that my Japanese class is moved to 1 but I bet it won't be! OMG! NO! WHINE! WHAT IS BUNNY GOING TO DO?? It's a SUPER GAIJIN GIRLS EMERGENCY!! Though, really, everything is an emergency to me, isn't it?

that's all i know about it

2004-09-08T22:39:17Z

I love how condescending my family is to me. They think themselves so much smarter simply by virtue of their age and they lord it over me like a bully on a playground. I've given up arguing (which was a goal that I mentioned here not too long ago) and, though I still get reeled in somewhat, I manage to stay uninvolved. Typical conversation:

Someone: "We had a surplus under Clinton and now we're back in debt because of Bush."

Me: "Do you know what a surplus means in government? Or what happened to that supposed surplus and how the US economy works?"

Someone: "No."

Me: "Okay."

Finis.

If someone is stupid enough to talk about things they know nothing about then anything I say to them will be wasted because they've gathered their opinion from editorial pieces and rhetoric. If someone were to ask, "But, Bunny, I'm sincerely interested, what is a surplus to the government exactly?" then I'd explain gladly. To have my father tell me that he knows how politics works, he knows how the economy works and he knows I'm wrong about the things he's right about is awful. He's never studied any of it and says he doesn't have to because he's "lived in the real world" which, according to him (and the rest of my family), makes him right and me wrong. As if 1) I don't live in "the real world," 2) his "real world" and someone else's "real world" are identical and, 3) in depth knowledge and understanding of complex issues is gained simply by indirect observation. I can tell you that if you screw in a lightbulb and flip the switch light will appear, however, I certainly can't tell you how to make the lightbulb, I can't tell you how the switch regulates the electricity, nor can I tell you how the wires in the walls work, nor how the power company generates and controls the electricity supplied to your home. Not knowing those things doesn't make me stupid but it certainly doesn't make me more knowledgeable than an electrician or scientist. I may know a lot about politics but for every one thing I know there are seven I don't but at least I'm trying to learn.

So, in other news, I just checked the stats for bollybolly and there are still people coming to download those old paintshop pro brushes I made. Still. This is PSP7 we're talking. Strange. Also there are a lot of people looking for PGSM wallpaper so I'll start making some. I'll do that later I guess.

As it happens, I'm not pregnant after all. I am not carrying Mana's messiah. Strangely, when my period started, I was a bit dissapointed, perhaps I actually expected that Mana had, in fact, magically impregnated me. There is something terribly disturbing about that.

I got my test back today in Japanese. 24.5/23. For "shitsuree shimashita" I put "please excuse me," by the way, and it was right. The -0.5 comes from hajimemashite and me being a dummy and putting "it's nice to meet you" because for some reason I thought it had something to do with meeting for the first time. Which, she explained it does... but... a better translation would be "how do you do?" hence the -0.5. Though, I'm confident I had the highest grade in the class because my paper was on top and I noticed the scores of the people around were getting lower and lower. And there were no corrective marks on my hiragana homework! Last time, I made the 3rd stroke of "ki" too ... um... well, it extended too far, I guess, so she scribbled them out showing me where they should stop. And I learned my lesson and this time it was perfect and she wrote "Good! Yoku dekimashita!" (well done!) Hooray for me! I'm proud of Friday's homework because I think it looks really nice. Today, Morgan (boy in class) brought us all little red buttons with "aisareteimasu" on them and that means "I am loved." CUTE!! So that button is pinned to Kyo-bunny's little black shirt (along with random safety pins cuz he's HARDCORE as a mahfucker!)

I have flat pink Hello Kitty computer speakers that sound like ass and only work occasionally. I want my money back. I doubt I'll get it back but it's worth a shot. Do you want to know how bad the sound quality is? Okay, take your discman/walkman/ipod/etc, take a set of those shitty free earphones you get with it, plug them in, turn on a cd, turn the sound all the way up and set the earphones on a table. See how bad that sounds? Bingo.

Well, the answer was no. Fingers crossed or not, I figured the answer was going to be no. Someone is giving away their rabbit for free (including the cage and things) and I asked and the answer is no. Well, technically, the answer was "SIGH. Well, my better judgement says no and I think you have enough to worry about with school and Pagan (note: um, a rabbit would disrupt this how?) and I would rather you didn't and if your aunt Kathy moves in she'll have to bring Katie and 2 dogs and a rabbit - I just don't know if I could handle that BUT I mean, if you want it I guess...........SIGH." That's granny-code for "dream on fattie." So, I can't have it. It's her house, you know? I don't see how a rabbit in my room would cause a huge catastrophe but granny just hates animals. How this is possible, I don't know, but it is. She thinks cats are too dirty but was more than happy to let my aunt's spawn trample through here leaving trails of smelly trash behind them. Still though, her house, her rules. That's not to say I can't dislike them. I'm really disappointed now. I told my hopes to not jump around last night but did they listen? No. That's what they get.

Bunny's awesomely awesome mess of a day

2004-09-08T03:36:24Z

My grandmother is officially worried about me. That's sweet and stuff but like I told her, I'm fine. My blood pressure has been low but it's because I'm not sleeping well, drinking too much caffeine and eating too much junk food and not enough healthy food. But, for a minute there, I was worried too. I thought I was going to faint. But I recovered and promptly took my vitamins.

This morning I was treated to quite a lovely show! I was waiting at the busstop when a blue car pulled up next to me. I pay no attention because I hate people anyway. The man pulls into the street, driving somewhat slowly, I look at him, he looks at me and he's actively jerking off. As soon as he sees that I've seen he drives away. How lovely. I'm so lucky. Does the fun ever start?? It's a laugh-a-minute when Bunny's around.

AAA! But! Girl A was back in class and omg and hearts. Seriously. I was sooo jealous of the girl who was sitting next to her because they started up a conversation and I wanted to rip her head off and dance in her blood. But then I figured Girl A might grow a tad puzzled at that action so I quit it and dedicated my time to sneeking glances out of the corner of my eye. I hate when she looks at me because I don't know what it means. Does it mean:

1) Ohmahgawd, she's a freak. She looks horrible. I hate her and want her to die.

or

2) She looks totally cool and interesting. She looks like a person I'd like to have sex with.

or

3) Wow, it sure is sunny outside today, I just wish that ugly blonde beast wasn't in the way of the nice window view.

Things just seem unneccesarily complex and dull. Things like this should be easy and really, there's no reason it can't be easy. I hate Girl A for seducing my vocal chords clean out of my body. I sit there, taciturn, almost afraid to say anything and being self-conscious about the tonality of my voice. Do I sound stupid? Is my voice weak? Is she the type of person who judges others on the quality of something as hollow as voice modulations? Why do crushes habitually turn an otherwise normal person into a questioning lump of self-awaredness?

Actually, today it's Minused 220 and + 3Con!! But I've got pink Hello Kitty hashi so it's all good. hidden in here for the ones that read this inane bullshit, I have the hots for my prof.

Sadly, Girl B was not in class. Did I tell you about her? My history class is full of girls that I have hearts for. Not good. At least it's a reason to be interested in the class.

OKAY!! ACTION ALERT! Everyone! Keep your fingers crossed for Bunny! I'm not telling you what it is yet because it's a longshot but cross those fingers and hope for me! I'll let you know once I know. Vague. Bunny apologises. And continues her streak of 3rd person point of view.

I got 3 new pair of socks today! I have a serious sock obsession. But gah, feet are dirty dirty dirty and I have to have them covered. The thought of me walking on my bare feet and picking up dirt to just redistribute makes me ill.

Viva la Bunny!!!

bunnybaggins @ 2004-09-06T03:31:00

2004-09-06T07:40:45Z

This sketchbook is a filthy rotten liar!! Bunny doesn't like sketchbooks that lie to her. Bunny has since come to learn that "watercolor safe" does not mean you can actually USE watercolors on this paper, it just means that they can be in the vicinity of the sketchbook, but actual watercoloring? No. Es ist verbotten. I finished this about 3 minutes before Toochers signed offline at like 12.30a (I think) and I didn't want to color it but I did anyway and I just now finished (3.15a). I SWEAR it looks four gabillion times better in person! Like, for seriously. This is ink, colored pencil and watercolor. My sketchbook is hardbound and pages don't just rip out, they have to be exacto-knifed out. Ha. So, the reason one side looks sorta blurry is because it wasn't lying exactly flat on the scanner. And has anyone besides me noticed that when my hair was black that was the usual color for any character I drew and now that I'm blonde, my characters are also blonde? Egotism? Beats me. Probably. Because they usually all have ponytails also. Anyway...

Suddenly I'm all about hard to read writing but not in an annoying "emo" way but in a gothic curly-q type way so in case you can't tell it says "sweet my honey" which is a line from the Dir en grey song "Zomboid."

Her eye is completely watercolor as are her lips. Her hair is a mixture of watercolor and color pencil, her skin are obviously my shitty quality color pencils and the blood is ink. On the right corner, those are plastic tubes (you can tell that in person, btw) and the other side is just black strappy things. Those things near her hair? I don't know. Dragonfly, butterfly. I like the name Alice.

to satisfy all my needs?

2004-09-05T21:13:23Z

Instead of making icons and a "friends only" banner for Toochers I updated the pic on my userinfo page. You can see the pic here.

In my defense I have no idea how Suzi wants her banner to look so there's no point in even really starting anything until I hear from her. My sewing machine broke and Granny's bobbin on her machine is empty and I can't figure out how to get it to automatically wind so fuck that nonsense. I want my own damn sewing machine. A real one... this one actually. And I'd kill for a fucking serger, this one particularly but I'll let you know when I magically have an extra $700 to spend on it. Look at all of the fancy stitches it does. Siiiiiigh.
Speaking of "stuff I want" I made a birthday/xmas wish list for my family, which, if you know me, is something I NEVER EVER do because getting gifts makes me feel awkward and nervous. This doesn't really stop people from buying them anyway and so this time I actually made a little list. I feel selfish and guilty about it though. However, I'm really superduper broke and these things (for the most part) I need/can and will use. If you wanna see it, it's here. It's all Hello Kitty stuff mainly because it's easy to find and it's something they know I love. Still I hate that I made a list and maybe I won't even show it to my family because I mean... who am I to expect things? I don't deserve anything. Blah.

AIM is being weird and not wanting to work. I had to restart my computer 3 or 4 times last night before I just gave up. Then I drew lots of awful looking pictures and wrote in my diary and worked more on the "thing"* and went to bed. Today, I'm all bored and icky. My hair is fudged up because I slept on it when it was wet and my period is still mysteriously absent (could I be carrying Mana's child???), still lightheaded and funky. I think everyone has a level of "weird" but I don't think it makes anyone interesting because we all have it. Like teeth. Now a lack of teeth, or maybe naturally purple teeth - THAT would be interesting.

340 gone, 260 left. Minused 100 for determination. Of course this raises my Constitution to +2 but lowers my Dexterity to -1. Hopefully on the next roll I'll find a bag of magic beans that makes the need to number crunching unneccesary.

Jeez i'm a nerd.

*The "thing" is a stupid story about faeries that I'm working on.

bunnybaggins @ 2004-09-03T23:21:00

2004-09-04T03:50:04Z

dear livejournal

ok so like try to keep up or whatever because like, um, this girl is totally all stupid and stuff and like she's um driving us all crazy in here. Cuz all like earlier when we was at school she was all ok or whatever but um then like after the class was done we were just standing there and like, ok, I know that she hates her blue jeans and like fer real they are whack!! I'm glad that she lost weight or whatever but like ok she needs some new clothes. I mean um i could hook her up with some phat threads but I'm thin and pretty and I'm not trying to be rude or whatever but like my clothes totally won't fit her and like I don't want them all stretched out. No offense and stuff but I mean she calls herself hungy hungry hippos. NEwayz, she was like totally buggin and stuff and she was all kinda spazzing but on the inside or whatever and then when the other (and totally badly dressed for rich kids) came out of the other classes at that school she was all weird and nervous or whatever. I thought she was gonna hurl all over the place and stuff and that would've been all messed up!! Cuz like blowing chunks is gross. Ok so then she was like "I'm just leaving" or whatever and she was all like "blah blah essay blah blah" and like who cares?? There are so many more imporatnt things in life. But so right, we left the building and ugh, totally, she was having to hold her pants up and stuff like a hobo!! A real hobo and not one of those fake ceramic ones you can buy at Wal-Mart because I think those things are suppsoed to be cute but um, really they are just stupid and so very old people stuff. So then anyway we was at the bus stop and then this guy was all like "I'm back" and I was all who the h are you? and he was totally old and fat and icky and he said "I'm back from france" and was all like, who are you"? and I was like "um, my name is Ashley who let you in here?" Then he was all ghetto fabulous and saying he was on the hundret dollar bill or whatever and I was like "Um, ew" and "go away now. kthnx" or whatever. So he's all mad that we're on a diet and I was like "you stay out of this mister! but he was all like "I'm not talking to you girl" and I was like, "whatever mister wannabeblackguy with a stupid head. I don't care if he dod invent bifocuses. Just whatever. Then I got rid of him and I got this call from my friend amy and she was like "who was that dude?" and I was like "beats the poop out of me" and we were going to go shopping but then like the stupid bus came and so then she got on that and blah blah blah she missed her busstop!!! (and she's supposed to be rilly smart 2. what the cheese?) She was all like "I'm so lost" and I was like um, well, i don't know any directions or whatever and luckily we got back to the regular place by the animal clinic before the bus came and there was this totally ick guy there and my friend amy was all like, "no way don't talk to that guy he's on a bicycle and wearing a blue skull cap!!" but she did anyway or whatever and I was like so peed off. sigh. Then on the bus was dumb or whatever but my friend Amy told me that sometimes there are cute guys on the bus but the only guys I saw were icks. Newayz she just flipped through her chinese book, or whatever, and that's boring. oh my gosh it's so crowded in here, ew. At least that perv boy is sleeping and that ghetto old dude is gone or whatever so that just leaves me and amy and stuff. I wish i could buy a kitten but like I think I'm allergic to cats because they always leave they're fur all over me!! but like, then we get here or whatever and things don't even get better or whatever she's just all stupid and says she feels "num and out of phase" and I was like "that's dumb! You're a dummy!" I'm tellin you guys she's totally f'd up or whatever. Newayz she's feeling better now or whatever and I totally know that's cuz of me cuz I'm just like the coolest evah and make every1 happy to the max or whatever. and guess what???? I totally have a new hat!!! It's a newsboy and it's a corderoy brown with a pink ribbon and it so totally like um matches my purse or whatever. Ew, she's got this stupid history chanel on about this old murder case. sometimes i totaly hate her and stuff but like my friend Amy or whatever was like we'll totally go rent some hunky movies and watch them and eat low fat popcorn or whatever and totally have a you go girl night! that's totally like this other day when I was with my sorority sisters (ex horseshoe forever!!!!!!!!) and we totally were crushing on the new Josh Hartnett movie!! He's is sooooo kyute and stuff! ok, newayz I'm outie!!!

ASHLEY LOVES BEN AFFLECK FOREVER!!
AMY AND ASHLEY BFF!!!!!!!!!!!

love,
ASHLEY

"I'm tired" wa Nihongo de nan to iimasu ka.

2004-09-03T19:42:52Z

That was a simple quiz! Yay! Like really easy. The extra credit question was to define (in english) "shitsuree shimasu" and I'm not sure about it because the book gives 3 definitions. First of all it's really polite, second of all here are the definitions:

1) goodbye
2) excuse me
3) I'm sorry

I don't remember which one I put to be honest. But I didn't know it also meant "goodbye." Anyway, with that one exception, the rest of the quiz I know I aced. I'm sure the actual test on the 24th will be more difficult and will require hiragana. This weekend I have Japanese homework, I want to practise hiragana, I have to read that book and write the essay for Tuesday. Oy.

In other news, how many other people besides myself watched the RNC? I didn't think so. But anyway, President Bush's speech was really good. I was surprised. I knew that the GOP had been planning to announce their intention to get rid of the IRS and Bush talked about stream-lining and simplifying the tax code and system. I would be fucking thrilled to have the IRS dissolved and replaced by a nice flat tax with few loopholes (some are needed and create incintives for business, like it or not, it's important) and an easy way for the layperson to understand exactly why their money is being stolen. Getting rid of the IRS is like.... heavenly. Plus, I also like the Social Security plan. Young workers (and actually, I think this will apply to everyone under 65) can put some of their social security tax money into a private account. Ooooooooo... I looooooove that toooooo!!
And I believe in "conservative values" and family values and I think more people need to realise the responsiblity they have to their families. My family sucked, lots of people have shitty families who despise each other and that's just wrong. Your family should mean something to you and I think we need to emphasize the importance of family. When I say that, people usually automatically think that I'm a fundamentalist who hates gays and single moms, none of that is true. Your family is what you make it. And they are all important. What's so wrong with wanting to strengthen the family unit? Traditional family or non-traditional it doesn't matter. It just bugs me that the term "family values" is deemed evil and hateful because of the levied assumptions. I used to be one of those people because I was a douche who didn't think about anything logically, you know? I based my opinion on conjecture and hearsay and assumed I was right without bothering to think things through to a reasonable end. Too many people are like that. Unfortunately. Sometimes when I think my opinions through I find that I'm wrong. Ha! But oh well, such is life and learning and I'd much rather move forward than stagnate.

Why do I get off on tangents? Someone on one of the vegan communities was talking about gyoza (potstickers) and there is a company that makes vegan ones. Whine. I'm so hungry. How many more calories can I have today... 170. Damn you 330 calorie Pitch Black Mountain Dew!!! I shouldn't have drank it. Oh well. Plus, breakfast and lunch and now I can have... a veggie hot dog OR a veggie burger and half a bag of 100 calorie wheat thins. Sigh.

I think I'll take a nap. Kazuko-sensee's niece named her cat Maru (circle) because he has such a round face. I think that's funny.

maybe this wind blowin' in just came from the ocean

2004-09-02T23:35:12Z

Who knew The Enlightenment was so boring? If History doesn't begin to interest me really soon I'll end up failing this class, proof of this is evidenced in the AMAZINGLY AWESOME NOTES I took during class, here, have a looksee: Clicky click. Cool, ne? By the way, above the spiderweb it says "science," because, I don't know why. Maybe 'cuz the Enlightenment was all about science and reason and rational thinking and skepticism? Anyway, my notes for Polisci are better (though still covered in doodles) but mostly I just wrote "blah blah blah, I already know this stuff, blah blah blah" and more doodles. I'm one talented doodle-artist. I could have a gallery showing.

Looks like the hurricane remains will stomp into here eventually, but not until Wednesday or so. I'm worried about Kirin and her family.

Gosh, I love the bags of soy chips in the SAC because a) them's right tasty! and, b) ONLY 140 CALORIES FOR THE WHOLE DAMN BAG!! Sheesh, this morning I was soooo cranky and in a bad mood that I swear, it was like people Red Sea'd around me. Usually it's a Knight's Quest of mazes to get to class but not today. I think they could sense that I would light them on fire if any one of them dared say anything. Plus, because I got there late, some doofus guy was in my seat but haha, because I sat next to him anyway. NEENER, MOTHER FUCKER, NEENER!!

I found out about the Asian ilm Fest at UofL today from Prof. Brittingham. I'm SOOOO going!!! ... to the Asian films. There are 3 (2 Chinese, 1 Japanese) and the 3 movie pass is only $3! I'm buying a ticket tomorrow! Yippee! But then I get to come home and work on that damn essay.

I love Michelle Branch.

Oh, and Girl wasn't in class today. Sobering and depressing.

renshuu, renshuu, renshuu

2004-09-01T22:25:15Z

Anata no denwa bangou wa?

Phone numbers are fun! More hiragana, more vocab and commands ("nihongo de itte kudasai")(please say it in Japanese) and according to Kazuko-sensee my handwriting is "beautiful." Considering I think it's shit, that's quite a compliment. AND! Big news! Kaz teaches a class MWF to just 1 person, Jason, and he's really good apparently and Kaz said we (me, Gary and Tiffany) are welcome anytime to sit in on that class and see how well he does and just listen and learn. Isn't that awesome?? I definitely will do that sometimes! It's at 11 and getting there an hour early is better than staying an hour late. Quiz on Friday in which she thinks will be too easy and we'll be mad at her for such an easy quiz. HAHA. Okay.

Other news? I FINALLY got my political science book. FINALLY. Though it's new and cost me $78. It's a good thing I have it too because the reading is supposed to be done by tomorrow and it turned out to be a 78 page chapter. Plus, I have a 40 page history chapter to read and my essay on Olaudah Equiano is due on next Tuesday. WTF? GAH! Isogashii!!! This weekend will be dull!! No lazing about on Monday for me. On the way home I got most of the polisci chapter read. It's about Britain and it's very interesting actually. We're also going to be studying Japan so that's awesome!

I'm glad everyone liked my "anyone but Bush" candidates. I mean, I'm all in favor of you having you opinion and voting accordingly, however "anyone but Bush" is not an opinion. If that's the best you can come up with you are a sad sad person and I grieve for democracy.

Ten bands/artists you couldn't live without (no order):
[1] Dir en grey
[2] Tori Amos
[3] Shiina Ringo
[4] Hikaru Utada
[5] Led Zeppelin
[6] Fiona Apple
[7] Nine Inch Nails
[8] Nina Simone
[9] Julie Christy
[10] Frank Sinatra

Nine albums that are important to you:
[1] Tori Amos, Under the Pink
[2] Dir en grey, Macabre
[3] Nina Simone Sings the Blues
[4] Dir en grey, Kisou
[5] Shiina Ringo, Karuki Zamen Kuri no Hana
[6] Nick Drake, Pink Moon
[7] Tori Amos, Boys For Pele
[8] Nine Inch Nails, The Downward Spiral
[9] David Bowie, The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars

Eight movies you'd watch over and over:
[1] Babydoll (my favorite movie EVER!!)
[2] Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?
[3] The Seven Year Itch
[4] Anne of the Thousand Days
[5] Secretary
[6] Ghost World
[7] Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
[8] The Ghost and Mr. Chicken

Seven things that annoy you:
[1] people who base their political opinions on emotion and knee-jerk reactions
[2] 90% of gay people
[3] lying fat people
[4] ugly lesbians
[5] people who can't take a damn joke
[6] slash fanfiction
[7] being broke all the time

Six songs you love:
[1] Van Morrison, Into the Mystic
[2] Dir En grey, Zakuro
[3] David Bowie, Life on Mars?
[4] The Beatles, Dear Prudence
[5] Tori Amos, Purple People (Christmas in Space)
[6] Dir en grey, Ain't Afraid to Die

Five TV shows you never miss:
[1] Stargate SG1
[2] South Park
[3] Law and Order
[4] Reno 911
[5] Monk

Four of your favorite books:
[1] Valley of the Dolls (#1 fave ever!)
[2] Battle Royale
[3] Alice in Wonderland
[4] Winnie the Pooh

Three albums you recently bought:
[1] On your Shore, Charlotte Martin
[2] um.... hmmmm
[3] hmmmm.... it's been a while since I've bought a new cd

Two famous people you'd like to fuck:
[1] Kyo
[2] Britney Spears

One band that is the soundtrack of your life:
[1] Fiona Apple

Also, I'm not too used to people telling me I'm funny. I usually can make people laugh, but my sister is the funny one.

Some guy on the bus told me he had a white rabbit that died while he was "in the middle of something important" *winkwink nudge nudge* And something about it being a bad omen or something. WTFever, dude.

or whatever

2004-09-01T01:13:23Z

I don't feel like updating this thing except to say that my stomach is seriously freaking out. At first I thought maybe it was that celery I ate last night but... it's still gooey today. Strangely, your body grows accustomed to your diet and when you introduce something that you can no longer digest because of your diet, bad things ensue. Hence, the tummy trouble. Or so I thought. Apparently there is a bug going around because aunt Tammy is also befallen with illness. I'm covered with little bruises, the tiniest tap will leave a nasty purple spot. Could the cause be a lack of vitamin C?

I will not develop a crush on her, I will not develop a crush on her, I will not develop a crush on her, I will not develop a crush on her. Why is she cute? Why am I attracted to her? Why does she dress in a manner I find alluring? Why does she look so good in hats when I myself do not? I wonder if her fingers are calloused? Will not, will not, will not, will not.

In an unintentional pun, the Bush-hating gay guy in my polisci class fills me with loathing and bemusement. He helps to foster a hatred of my kindred. "Yeah, but don't you think the electoral college... middle man... mess things up... Bush sucks." Well, he didn't actually say that last bit, but drawing a line from a liberal autocracy to the electoral college in a desperate attempt to legitimize his "anyone but Bush" agenda is the annoying equivalent of a child throwing a temper tantrum over a candy bar. Either way, you just end up wanting to beat the shit out of them. "Why don't we just do what we always do? Like in Iraq *self-satisfactory snicker*"
"What? Invade?"
"Yeah, I mean, it works, right *self-satisfactory chuckle*?" Then later in the day I saw him, too small sunglasses glued to his "LOOK AT ME! I'M GAY!!" face, followed by his equally holier-than-thou clique of "anyone but Bush" supporters.

The whole "anyone but Bush" movement makes me want to punch random strangers. What a stupid statement. Anyone but Bush. I'm sure that makes John Kerry feel quite special.
So, in the spirit of "anyone but Bush" I present to you candidates who are qualified for Presidental Office simply by virtue of not being George W. Bush:

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Hitler. Bad guy? Yes. Stupid moustache? Of course. Nazi? Sure. Fit for office of the President of the United States of America? TOTALLY! Why? Because he's not George W. Bush, that's why.
Pro: Good hygene, snappy dresser, likes long walks on the beach and candlelit dinners.
Con: Raising taxes, killing Jews, big fan of Dave Matthews Band.
Vice President: rapper and occasional target practice, 50 Cent.

Not-so-subtle ~~Christian~~ rock singing sensation, Scott Stapp. Oh sure, he's a little self important and he kind of looks like the wolfman after being attacked by a pack of gillette razors and seems to think himself a mix of Jesus and Eddie Vedder, but at least he's not George W. Bush.
Pro: Can sing. Can swallow microphones. Walks on water.
Con: Sings. Pulled a face muscle trying to look more ernest than Bono. Smells like cabbage.
Vice President: His cloned self.

Lindsay Lohan's big, fake boobs. $10,000 worth of plastic and silicone can do a lot for a career and what better career is there than the US President? Like, totally, omg, because, um... like, this one time, or whatever, I was talking to my friend Amy, or whatever, and um, she was all like, "Dude, Lindsay Lohan's boobs are totally real!" and I was like, "Nuh-uh," or whatever, and Amy was like, "PSYCH!!!" or whatever. It was awesome!!!!
Pro: Firm, high, expensive, highly photogenic.
Con: Hard and oddly circular shaped, obviously fake, weak on defense.
Vice President: Hilary Duff's smaller and thereby less important boobs.

Zombie Hitler?? Yes, the resurrected corpse of der Fuhrer! Because Hitler is dead, it would be pretty difficult to vote him into office, but after a night of many Santeria rituals, Zombie Hitler crawled from the earth, dusted himself off and promptly started to eat brains.
Pro: He's not George W. Bush. Walks slow and moans to announce his presence, difficult to kill.
Con: Usually found eating the brains of Jewish cabinet members, believes in Nostradamus, no real economic policy.
Vice President: Completely heterosexual diet and fitness guru, Richard Simmons.

A glazed Cruller. Mmmm... doughnut goodness. It can be argued that pastries aren't capable of navigating the complexities of the American government, but at least this cruller isn't George W. Bush.
Pro: Delicious, glazed and rimmed with ridges. Tastes even better dipped in coffee.
Con: Is a junk food breakfast snack, member of the Green Party, says he longs to be slowly eaten by airheaded heiress Paris Hilton.
Vice President: El chupacabra, the goat-sucker.

No good, lousy, goddamn mother fucking "furry." While he likes to pretend that he's a female horse with human anatomy named "Blaze," 42 year old business man Larry Wayne Johnson is really living in his mother's basement masturbating to pictures of Lassie like the twisted sicko that he is. Still better than Bush.
Pro: Has art skills.
Con: Abuses his art skills. Is too busy denying his disgusting obsessen with beastiality to realise that he needs extensive therapy, never finished high school.
Vice President: Beloved children's cartoon character, Pikachu.

Zombie Hitler Eating the Cruller. In a CNN poll, a 54% majority of Americans (with a slight error margin of +/- 100%) found the thought of a brain eating president to be too extreme and not moderate enough. After a careful reworking of his image, Zombie Hitler is back, this time his taste for human flesh replaced with a love of fattening sweets.
Pro: Still not George w. Bush. Eating all the sweets will make Americans less obese, can now focus more on his health care reform bill.
Con: Being a ziggy piggy like Napoleon by eating all of the treats, will soon weigh in excess of 8000lbs.
Vice President: Good looking rogue and southern gentleman, John Edwards.

Ooo, I can hardly wait for November!

bunnybaggins @ 2004-08-30T16:02:00

2004-08-30T20:36:12Z

We have a vocab quiz on Friday and we learned ka, ki, ke, ko, ku and then Kaz let us (me, Tiffany and Gary) sit in on her Japanese Independant Study class. She said we're welcome anytime! So, maybe once a month I'll drop in just to listen, I really can't stay an extra hour all the time. Plus! The coolest thing is that Kazuko-sensei will be bringing in real calligraphy brushes for us to practise with! And there are no diet cokes in Bellarmine apparently so I had to drink regular and so there goes 150 calories.

Still no call from UofL about my political science book. I think I shall kill them. Maybe tomorrow it'll be there. If not, fuck them, I'll look at Gray's.

My financial situation this month worries me. I don't know what I'm going to do. Hopefully I'll have $50 left to buy some food and I'm still wearing my crappy summer-bum clothes. Sigh. And I still HATE my hair, grow out already damn you! Blah blah blah.

I have to finish reading tonight. I felt really ugly today. I think I beat myself up too much. All of my art lately has been horrible. I'm out of supplies anyway. My birthday is in October and that's lame. I've never looked forward to them. I'm approaching adulthood (think: hobbits) and that sucks big time.

hungry hungry hippo

2004-08-30T05:01:03Z

I'm incredibly hungry. I've eaten my limit for the day but my tummy is rumbly. I have class tomorrow at noon and I have to get up at 9.30 to make it there in time. I should be sleeping and I am tired, I just know that I should probably read. I did read the article for polisci, one of the chapters for history and I finished my Japanese homework and practised calligraphy for an hour. But that was last night. Tonight I've done nothing. It sounds silly but I needed to wind down. The first week back to school is chaotic and I'm used to sleeping until 1pm. Oh well. At least the weather seems to be cooperating with me for a change as it will be in the mid-upper 70s tomorrow, which is a welcome change from the upper eightes, lower ninties we've been having. It will be nice to get to class and NOT be a sweaty wreck.

Sarah Jessica Parker is the spokesperson for GAP? Why? I hate the GAP but love SJP! What's a girl to do? Oh well. The VMA's sucked all sorts of ass. Outkast was the only good performance... well, and Alicia Keys, but I don't like Stevie Wonder and I won't pretend to just 'cuz he's an "icon" and Jessica Simpson, what's wrong with you? "nothin but a t-shirt oooowwwwwwnnn" - eh? Don't affect accents in the middle of a song. The Kerry sisters were boooooooooooed. I felt bad for roughly 2 seconds. Hoobstank, hoobasucks and that lead singer guy cannot sing live. Britney wasn't there, she was probably smoking a cigarette and being white trashy with Vanilla Ice Jr. Hilary Duff looks like someone's mom that's trying to be "cool" and "hip." Oh, Jay-Z and Beyonce, just admit that you're dating we all know that you are. Can someone explain to me why Bruce Willis was there? What is this crazy obsession Puff Daddy has with being friends with Demi Moore's love interests?
Marilyn Manson, I hate you lots. Remember how you were copying Alice Cooper hardcore BEFORE you went to Japan and saw DEG and other vk bands and then you came back to the US and suddenly you were looking oddly similiar to Dir en grey, so much so that they accused you of copying them but people still buy your music because they're stupid and you think you're being really awesomely cool but really you're just a talentless moron who lives to try and shock people even though shocking people is soooooo 1996 and no one gives a shit anymore? Yeah, thought so.

It's now 1am and I suppose I'll try to sleep. It takes 5 hours of my day to attend a one hour class. You'd better appreciate me Japan, I'm seriously.

baby i can't believe everything your body make me wanna do

2004-08-28T20:13:43Z

My room is still filthy. I will clean it today! I'm determined, damn it. You know, you can stop sending me notices, bank, I'm aware of my situation and there ain't a damn thing I can do until Wednesday. Deal with it.

Dear eBay seller,

If you're going to charge me $5 for shipping, do me a favor and actually use the $5 to ship my item. Don't lie to me and send it fucking media mail for .51 cents.

Hatefully,
Bunny

However!! I looooooooove the Nana artbook. I hope that Tokyopop will translate it as my Japanese skills will take a while to develop to the point of reading the originals. Though, Nana's name means "seven."

Ahh! At this moment, my bedroom is 77% clean! I even made my bed! Shocked? I know! Me too!! But I was up at 9.25am this morning to babysit Toochers' auction. Gosh, that cracks me up. Goddamn stupid fangirls. By the way, it's spelled "boy" not "boi." Ugh, I hate that girl. Too bad that only Toochers knows who I'm talking about. Anyway, then I went back to sleep and slept until about 12.30.
I tried looking for jobs but most of them are too far away or will not work with my hours. As much as I hated working with REACH, I'd go back there in a second if I could. I don't know what I'm going to do about next semester. I need to go back to full time but I won't get any more aid so that means I'll have to pay the rest of my tuition and buy my books. Next semester I'll most probably be taking POLS 330 - International Relations, stupid ENG102, JPN102, Honors Anthropology201 and probably something else. My Japanese class should be at the same time in the spring as it is now (noon). So, I'll take a class MWF at 10-10.50, catch the bus out there, get back to UofL at about 2 and probably take another class or two. This means that I won't be able to take the London trip in the spring. Oh well.

ikaga desu ka

2004-08-28T03:59:11Z

Because I'm an idiot, I will be left with about $95 to last 3 weeks. somehow I ended up $120 overdrawn at the bank. How? They charged me $30 overdraft fees for the first few days and now it's just $6 a day. Great. Looooooovely. So, I have that, which by the time I get paid on Wednesday will be around $150, so

$150 - bank
$154 - cable/internet/phone bill
$165 - credit card

For my services rendered I earn about $560 per month. Yes, this leaves me with $95. These little tests and trails I've been through lately are starting to piss me off. Okay, Mana, you win. Sheesh. I decide to be more money-wise and manage better and this slaps me in the face. All because I was short $3 in the bank. This means that I'm stuck with the same boring, baggy clothes that I've been wearing since LAST semester. It's depressed me but there's nothing I can do but wait it out. So, yeah. Good thing I don't eat anymore because I can't afford food. Sigh. It's my own fault for being so stupid. I hope I win that $500 but I doubt I will. I was thinking about how bad I'd feel if I won. Granny said that I need to realise that I can deserve things too but I just feel like I'd be taking it from some needy person. Granny said, "aren't you needy? You're not exactly rich and you are a good student with good grades, that doesn't make you a bad person."
Still though, as much as I want it and would be very grateful for it (especially now), I just feel like... I don't know. That I'm being selfish and greedy. The winner will be announced next week but like I said, I don't think I'll win it. Other people write good essays, other people write really really good essays. Hello, self-hatred and insecurity!

Anyway, the highlight of my day was Japanese class! I didn't see an Emily in there alannap but maybe she was quiet. Kazuko-sensee was very busy, she'd said, but she still managed to cook us zucchini bread and Japanese rice. I want her to adopt me!! She's the nicest, bestest teacher I've ever had. I've got my textbook and I've got calligraphy homework and I need to read the book for history and start THAT essay and eventually I'll need the textbook for Political Science, which won't be in until Monday or Tuesday.

So, in happier news, Toochers* and I watched Stargate. Atlantis has grown on me though it would grow on me a lot more if Weir and Teyla were eaten by the wraith. Or maybe Shepphard would just snap and blow their heads off.

I'm downloading an offical Coru-approved anime called "Maria-sama ga Miteru." It's at 26%.

reiichinisanyongorokushichihachikyuuju

*Toochers is Suzi's new nickname!

remind me to never stay in any room marked "4"

2004-08-25T21:20:12Z

Konnichiwa! I absolutely love my Japanese class!! It's so much fun! The stuff we're learning is simple but it's so fun! And I rode the bus back with Gary and Tiffany. It was 87° and unnervingly hot. So, we got to UofL, I gave Gary my contact info and walked with Tiffany to the sac. Books. I found all 6 needed books for history, all used, all $110 dollars of used books. However, they're out of the book I need for polisci and aren't ordering anymore! What the hell? I had to special order it but I think I'll enlist Laura in another ninja mission tomorrow to Gray's to see if they have it. One of my history books is "All Quiet on the Western Front" has stupid highligher writing in it but it's awesome because the writing is, "RICKY MARTIN IS MY HERO!!" so I'm keeping this book forever!
Sigh, anyway, books in tow, I waded down to the bus stop where I proceeded to wait 20 minutes for the bus. Hot hot hot. The bus was mad it was so hot and decided to break down on Winkler Ave (across from the Sonic). I had to call my granny to come fetch me.

Kazuko-sensei is bringing in treats for us on Friday so we can practise itdakimasu and gochisoo sama deshita. Let me take a minute to say I hate the weirdo spellings. "Moo ichido" - to me that looks like "moo" as in what a cow says. But no, it's kinda like "mow" but shortened. Weirdo spellings!!!

What kind of person are you in a relationship quiz

You are a XSYT--Expressive Sentimental Physical Taker. This makes you a Firebrand.

You are volatile, sexy and sexually driven. You're magnetic and fascinating, but you don't really enjoy playing the field -- it makes you nervous and preys on your insecurites. But when you fall for someone you fall hard.

You tend to over-analyze things, so the slightest comment or action from your significant other can send you into a tailspin. You crave attention and validation from your loved ones, so if your friends don't like your partner or your partner doesn't like your friends it makes you suffer. Unfortunately the two are often in conflict -- you have excellent insight with your friends, but in a relationship you are blind. Trust your friends!

You blow hot and cold, with big highs and big lows. This makes the bad times very bad but the good times very good, so you tend to stay in a problem relationship much longer than you should. But when a relationship fails, you hold a grudge. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but make sure your grudge doesn't cloud your vision the other way!

What would help you most in your relationships is confidence. You need someone who can help you feel good about yourself and not worse.

You can be needy and jealous. Fortunately you are cute as hell.

kiss me deadly

2004-08-24T20:50:17Z

Contrary to what canaryblack says, I'm neither cute nor cool though I can be quite nice.

Anyway, guess how many books I need for honors history? Go on, guess, I'll wait...

la la la la la

la la la la la

la la la

la la

la

Give up? SIX! I need S-I-X books! Six books. SIX BOOKS!!! So, I need about another $200 worth of books which I'll have to borrow from granny and get the books tomorrow because I have reading assignments in both classes. Sigh.

The polisci class I KNOW I will love, no doubt. From the minute the guy started speaking I was drooling at the thought of reading the textbook. I'm a social science nerd. History seems interesting, despite the 6 books. We have 3 tests consisting of essay questions and identification questions (she gives us a name and we have to define it in a paragraph) and 2 essays 5-7 pages in length, plus we can do a 10 minute oral report and written essay for an extra credit of 5 points. We have to chose a historical figure and I'd chose good ol' Ben Franklin (and believe me, he's pouting that I can't) but it needs to fit into the other stuff we're learning about. So, I'm going to chose Admiral Yamamoto Isoroku. Since we're learning about WWII and Admiral Yamamoto was really important to that war because it was his idea and plan to attack Pearl Harbor. After the Japanese Imperial Army successfully struck, the officers were cheering and Yamamoto told them, "I fear all we have done is awaken a sleeping giant and fill him with a terrible resolve." Even though Japan was our enemy at that time, he was really instrumental in history and WWII - without him, the US might not have ever been involved in the war. So, yeah. And I love extra credit.

As indicated earlier, I did meet canaryblack!! YAY! She's so cute and great and I love her!! I think I'm obnoxious and annoying and loud and brash and talkative.

And I MISSED MY GODDAMN BUS BY LIKE 25 SECONDS! It literally pulled away in front of me. What the fucking hell? I was so pissed off! It's, roughly, 28 million degress outside and I had to wait next to a rude "let me position my cigarette right in your face" guy who knew it was bothering me. I'm allergic to tobacco. If it's not a lot of smoke then I'm okay but this was a full flavor regular cigarette and my chest burned like mad and my throat kept wanting to shut. So, it was wait in the shaded bus stop next to Mr. Smoker OR wait in the 901 million degree sunshine. Pout. I went to pee to spare my lungs but had to use the.... Natural... Sciences building.... omg.... in order to get to the girl's bathroom, one must traverse the sea of math nerds, headbutt your way through the token sorority girls, go down to the rarely journeyed "lower level", past the collected garbage and the "danger! Laser room!" sign only to be treated to a poorly lit pee hole, littered with clumps of yellow toilet tissue and poo smears on the stalls (this does not happen accidentally!!) and a smell that was a mixture of windex, camel cigarettes, cat litter and dirty pampers.
Because the natural sciences building is the physics building there are boys all over the place and so, of course, there are 2 boy's bathrooms on the first floor. Hiding the girl's bathroom is just a subtle way of the boys asserting their math dominance over females. All right, we get it, generally, boys are better at math... and girls are better at EVERYTHING else. But there are some smart girlie math-nerds, like Kirin!

I took Laura with me to John's office but he wasn't there, so I left him a note calling him a loser. It was a secret ninja mission!! and we pulled it off flawlessly! Kathleen loved my hair and I saw Mrs. Florence and she SMILED at me for once in her life!! But that might've been because someone was with me and she wanted to give a good impression. Plus, she looked nice. Her hair was done and she was wearing a skirt and makeup!! She looked pretty. Maybe she changed over the summer! Summers can be magic!

I'm glad to be back home though, where I can pig out on sushi (which could've used a little more vinegar after all) and relax and stop sweating. Tomorrow it's back to Japanese!! Hooray!!!

long and rambly

2004-08-23T19:47:11Z

Kaz rules! OMG Kuzuko-sensei is the sweetest woman ever! So, Kaz told us all about where she grew up and she told us about how beautiful Kyoto is, which is nice considering that's where I want to go to universtiy. There are 127,000,000 people in Japan and she gave us candy and pocky! We only learned hai and iie and itadakimasu but it was mostly talking today. She said that if we take all of the classes Bellarmine offers we should be able to pass the proficiency test (one of her students did and is now a translator). WHEE! She was surprised to see 17 students in the class because there are usually only about 10. 7 of the students are UofL students. Ha. Stupid UofSmell. Anyway, the bookstore did not have my book but were ordering all new ones. $121 each. So, I came home, found the book (new), bought a new dictionary and a practise workbook for $111. But I changed the shipping for 1 day so the total was $125 but still though! F you in the A, Bellarmine bookstore. They have a fucking armed guard in their bookstore. WTF? Anyway, 3 people in the class are in the anime club at UofL which I'll be attending tomorrow! I wonder if canaryblack wants to come with me? It's at 6.30.
Hopefully my books will be here before I leave for class on Wednesday but knowing UPS they won't be here until 8pm. Oh well. I might end up borrowing the money for the rest of my books from granny which is lame because I need new clothes and I have about $300 worth of bills too. So, I might have to pay gran back in installments.

I figured out that I need to burn 711 calories a day to lose the weight I want to lose. That's a brisk hour walk and weight training. 462+245 = 707, which is close enough to 711. I have to do that every damn day though. Lame. But what won't be lame is being thin.

I'm glad school is back in session, I just wish they gave me work study. What am I going to do for money? Gods, this sucks. Lame lame lame. I don't know where I can possibly find a job that fits my damn schedule. Sigh. I don't know what I'm going to do. If I have to borrow it from granny then that's just what I'll have to do. Since money will be TIGHT that means no new clothes for me, no manga, no nothing. At least until... November, I think. That means that I'll have DEG's new dvd with no way to watch it until November. BUT! When I do buy a new dvd player, I'm buying this. Battle Royale 1 and 2. Swweeeeeet. Even though I wasn't all that fond of the movie version.

Do you know how much my life will improve if I win this $500 scholarship? DO YOU?? HAVE YOU ANY IDEA?? An extra $500 will make me so happy right now. I wish they'd make a decision soon... in my favor.

Anyway, I'm so happy that I'm finally doing what I want to do. For the first time ever I feel like I'm on the right path in my life. There's no reason for me to not do what I want to do just because I'm afraid or just lazy (the usual culprit). I was looking at Doshisha University's webpage and that's where I want to go, that's where and what I want to study. So why can't I? Exactly. The only thing stopping me is me and my fear. Well, fuck that, I'm not going to be 65 years old wishing to Mana that I'd just done it. So I'm doing it, just fucking doing it. *inside joke snicker* Will I be scared? Yes, it's only natural and normal and I need to quit faulting myself for perfectly understandable and justified human emotions. Besides, Doushisha is in my precious Kyoto!

And OMG! Kaz was right! There is an Asian center here. WTF? When did that happen? She said she teaches Japanese there once a week. Well, I need to check that out!

Today was great though, by the way, in case you couldn't tell. That just leaves back to UofL tomorrow though. The Honors Picnic is on the 3rd of September but I can't go because I'll be at Bellarmine. I miiiight be able to make the end of it if I can get back on the bus in time.

in my hands, even my beloved is scattered gloriously

2004-08-22T00:13:42Z

130 calories for 2 cookies but I don't give a shit. They are the bestest vegan caramel-coated cookies EVER! It's like eating heaven. Of course, they're going to last me for 2 weeks so that means cookies everyday... for two weeks. Ha. But still. Plus, I finally bought a cucumber so I can make sushi and that means that my calorie limit will be blown sky high, if I manage to make sushi without screwing up somehow.

My grandmother just got back from helping my aunt Kathy clean out some of my great-granny's stuff. Gran made great-gran a plush rabbit once in a cranberry-colored dress with pretty flowing ribbons and she brought it home for me, and a pretty handkercheif (because I don't use tissues, I'm dainty) and a box of christmas card stationery.

I'm NOT going to be able to use Dir en grey to help me with Japanese because Kyo 1) mumbles and, 2) uses his Kyoto accent! The printed lyrics will work until it comes to Kyo using old obscure kanji (like "saku") or creates new words ("kigan") or twists them around ("tsukiyomi") thereby rendering my dictionary useless. I do love that he uses very very dirty words to which the equivalent english words would be "pussy," "cum," and "dick," it makes my day. Plus, hearing him say masturbation in "Pink Killer" tickles me. Jeez, my daddy said, upon me telling him how filthy and disgusting deg's lyrics are, "Oh, they can't be worse than Rammstein's lyrics." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Oh, daddy, how naive you are. You'd freak out if you knew how vulgar and foul these words were and order my ears washed with soap. Haha. And I suspect Suzi's coworkers would be HORRIFIED to know what the words meant. Probably alot of deg's english speaking fans would be icked out too.
But back to music as study aid: Morning Musume and Hikaru Utada and Ayumi Hamasaki will work quite nicely! Gackt too probably. Who else? X Japan maybe... Puffy... hmmm... I'm sure there are lots.

I need stamps! I've got letters to mail. Hey, guess what? 2 little cookies does not satisfy hunger pains! Grr!

smiling through my gay

2004-08-21T06:49:34Z

I almost told you all something I didn't want to. Sorry. I can't tell you because I know how you'll react and it isn't important because your words will not in any way change my determination.

Anyway, I'm a horrible person.

And also anyway, I'm tired but can't sleep. My insides are being torn to shreds. What the hell is wrong with me? Pathetic and annoying.

I'm 5'7". I measured myself. I told everyone that I was shorter than they thought! I knew it. I wish I were short and cute... maybe 5'5"

I've been in a writing mood of late. I need to finish that other thing and stop being lazy. MANA! My whole abdomen is cramping. This is what I get for eating too much. I should do 50 crunches to try and burn off some of what I ate. I'm going to be a fat loser forever. What sort of pathetic moron can't lose weight? Me, that's who. Oh, right, I'm sorry, I need to be happy and at least "not depressed."

So whee! Japanese class on Monday! Like I told Laura, my knowledge of katakana and hiragana put me ahead of the game as far as I'm concerned. But it's a step closer, isn't it? Yes indeed. I'm out of glue and paint.

Tired, tired, tired. Little has changed from 1997 to 2004, huh? Still a bundle of joy! Only now it's a repressed bundle of joy! Yay for me! Viva la Bunny!

bunnybaggins @ 2004-08-19T15:00:00

2004-08-19T22:23:37Z

Finally I can buy my bloody books. Finally.

Who ♥ bobajames? I ♥ bobajames! He sent me fun Otakon stuffies!!! *loves and loves* The E3 footage.... *drool* I'd go to E3 over Otakon anyday! Sadly though, the manga thingies he sent have me wanting to buy more manga and that's never good because manga is like crack cocaine.

In the car, on the way back from the bank, Granny says, "I don't know why you've always been fascinated with Japan. They have earthquakes." You know, because America is 100% earthquake free and Kentucky is not near any fault lines or anything, no no not at all. *cough* Yeah, anyway, I don't know why. Maybe it's my aunt Tsuneko's fault. At any rate, earthquakes?

I spent time on google looking up family members and I found this cool website about the town my grandfather grew up in, Mauckport, Indiana! This is the high school he attended, I have a picture of some sports team from that school, basketball maybe, that my grandfather Miller was on. It's cute because he was the tiniest member of the team. My grandfather Miller was about 5'5" and my granny Miller was 6'0". Cute, huh? My grandfather's family helped settle that town! They're from Virginia originally? Weird. This is The Gray Rabbit which was owned by Arthur Miller Sr! Wow, that just is interesting! I want to research my grandfather's family. Too bad I know nothing about geneology.

I'd take my dog for a walk if it wasn't 92 fucking °

I got my heart bag from katsuren!! I love it! It's so cute!!

all under heaven

2004-08-19T00:26:44Z

It's beautiful. Breathtakingly surreal and gloriously gorgeous. Metaphorically, it's cinematic poetry, a ballet of swords and love. There will be Crouching Tiger comparisons but they are superficial. One of the things I loved most was the color and the subtle way it led to the truth. The costumes are amazing and the fight scene between Moon and Falling Snow is art. One could watch this movie without sound and subtitles and the cinematography alone would dazzle.
I will see the American release and I will bring a box of tissues as I sat here and sobbed. The plot isn't complex but the vested emotions and overall beauty of this film is engaging! And the ending is sad and anticlimactic but the moral of the tale is astounding. So everyone must go see Hero. Go, go, go! Or buy it like I did as it was released in China in 2002.
The soundtrack, by the way, is also great but it should be as it was done by the same guy who did the music for Crouching Tiger and that's sort of obvious. That being said, the theme is marvellous! I love it! So much so, I want you to hear it also! Click here.

Whatever it takes to go back to full time next semester. Why? Because I need a strong transcript. Why? For the $25,000 scholarship. Why? Because I'll need it when I study abroad in Japan for ten months. Yes, it's 2 years away but those positions are competitive. The more I look at the website the more I'm drawn to just staying in Japan to continue my studies there. I'd planned on specializing in domestic policy but I'd be a liar if I said Japanese-American international relations doesn't intrigue me. I suppose I'll see how it goes when I get there... in two years.

It's going to storm. I think I might lie down for a while and write in my journal.

konnichiwa, bitches

2004-08-16T20:53:06Z

Well... I'm bored.

I don't wanna deal with anything at all. Anyone can ask Suzi, I was talking about either kicking off my entire friend's list and making this friends only (i.e. me only) or getting a new lj and not telling anyone about it. And before everyone jumps on my case with "omg don't you loooooove meeeeeeeee?" stuff let me say that I'm just tired. You know? I read certain people and I feel that they feel they are better than me, I read others and I wonder "what happened here?" and others are just "sigh." I got rid of a lot of communities also. But I don't hate anyone or anything like that so don't get that impression. The only lj person I truly despise is Tam.

Now that's out of the way and I still might move this journal. I don't know. Whatever.

Flying is so much fun. Hella fun. I want to fly all the time and go everywhere!! But!! I'm NEVER EVER EVER going through O'Hare again. NEVER. They moved my fucking gate 30 minutes before takeoff without saying anything. If I hadn't checked the damn board to make sure I was right about the time I never would've known that my gate was all the way on the other side of the fucking terminal. Thank you, Chicago. When you look out over water though, as you fly over, you can see the curve of the earth. Pretty nifty.

However, O'Hare reminded me of my goal. A very important goal, red and plump and plopped in the middle of a snow field. I need to focus on that.

I'm NEVER eating again. Oh gods. I thought I'd be healthy and actually, you know, eat something. Mistake. My tummy cramped really fucking badly. No, no, no. I'll stick to the little 100 calorie packs of wheat thins, thank you very much.

Clothes washed, bath taken, mess scattered, mission accomplished.

bunnybaggins @ 2004-08-15T12:09:00

2004-08-15T17:16:40Z

I, the ever wonderful Bunny, am letting Suzi steal Kyo from me. They are allowed to run off and have babies together. Suzi will work in a sushi factory making little sushis, while Kyo continues his chest clawing vocalizations.

;)

bwahahah! hey y'all! tis suzi! since i know bunny's password, i decided to hop on here and use her lj, cuz mine is hella lame.

talking to gaer at the tasty moment. woooo!

bunny and i watched the five ugly kingdom concert last night. we both *heart* it hella much. though i almost got in trouble, cuz toshiya was standing behind kyo for much of the concert, and i kept sighing over him. toshiya. not kyo. as kyo is not mine, and would find my finnish blond normality to be way boring.

i have cleaning to do before my mum gets home. lame. though thankfully bunny and i did not go through many dishes, and mowing the lawn should be easy seeing as the lawn mower is fixed.

well, i should wrap this up before bunny gets all suspicious.

RUN FROM THE CHUPACABRAS!!!! RUN!

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